bloggings of a mom

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- GOOD MORNING!

yesterday i went to the mall with some girlfriends…we met for lunch and then walked into a few stores…

i forgot islas stroller. stupid on my part…but i was carrying her and my friend was helping too all was fine…

we walk into a store and this is the conversation i had with the sales lady:                    

Lady: dont you have a stroller?

       Me: no i forgot it.

       Lady: you can rent one at the mall office

       Me: i know thanks, but it wont work for her.

       Lady: but they have princess ones.

- why thank you so much just because they are princess strollers my daughter is miraculously going to be able to sit in one.

i know she was just trying to help but, come one. for once would someone just LISTEN when they are talking to you.

i have no words for the awesome facebook message i received today…

“Summer,
I know that I haven’t talked to you in AGES…probably since junior year of high school…and therefore this is absolutely out of the blue but I just had to tell you.
You have sincerely and truly touched my life through your faith. I am normally friends with people on FB just because I want to check their status to see what is going on in their lives. 
You are different. I read your blog and you inspire me to be a better person and a better Christian. Your stories and your incredible faith is unyielding. You are truly an amazing person. 
Just thought you should know how many lives you touch without even knowing it….God bless.” 

all i can say is wow…and to you who wrote this wonderful note. thank you from the bottom of my heart. thanks…

Tim and I are certain this is why god has given us the life that he has.

i write this with an amazingly overwhelmed heart. isla has for 5 nights in a row put her self to sleep at night. in her crib with her weight blanket, sleep music, and a soother toy playing on her ceiling. she has only woke up a few times in the night and gone right back down after after she is comforted for a minute at most.

HALLELUJAH!!!!!

we have her new meds. klonopin. a muscle relaxer which we used last night and worked great. we are planning on only using it when we need to. the nights where her body is fighting against her. 

we could not be more happy. and thankful. it is so wonderful to see prayers at work.

Thank You LORD!!!!!!

and GO BABY GIRL GO!

Nutrigrain bars. loves them…

my tension headache turned into something much much more…

at about 5 oclock last night i felt my normal headache/toothache/jawache/earache (basically the whole right side of my face in pain) coming on.

i took two excedrine and fully expected it to go away in a half hour like it usually does.

but it didnt…it only got worse.

so bad that i couldnt stand the tv on even though it was on sound level 5. all lights inthe house had to be off… nothing was working. 

at 8:30 my mom came over with some drugs. but i never took them. tim and i went to the ER the pain was so bad. i was crying in pain and i usually dont cry. i didnt even let a tear fall during my back labor pains with isla.

finally the doc gave me some meds…three shots of something in the booty. it was fabulous and then he recommended that i get a ct scan to see if anything was going on because of my chronic headaches.

ct scan came back negative. 

we were realeased to go home with a couple prescriptions and a note that said i need to go to the  dentist. 

well i went to the dentist first thing this morning. he siad it could be a few things. or a combination of a few. 

1.) i clench my jaw hard and a lot. i used to do this in college. i havent worn my mouth guard in 5 years.

2.) a tooth where a filling fell out. doesnt look like it has an infection but it could be causing craziness.

3.) a tooth that got pulled a while ago…7 years ago. part of the root is still in my mouth. and has a slight infection around it.

so what does this mean?

-i need to wear my mouth guard.

-i need a root canal.

-i need that bit of leftover tooth taken out.

-im on a soft food only diet for a week.

-and finally some really good drugs! ha!

-oh yeah if this doesnt get cleared up by the above a follow up with neurology!

anyway that has been my past few hours! hope yours has been better.

also i learned i dont like the after affects of benedryl (one of the three shots the gave me in the er) and two i miss my baby i havent been with her all night or morning. so i i go to cuddle her and change a stinky smell coming from her diaper.

stink. i have been in bed all day. my husband has been so good. i am so blessed to have him.

its been snowing on and off all day today at the beach. so we cuddled up with breakfast for dinner!

pancakes

cheesy scrambled eggs

sausage

pears

juice 

coffee

….isla had the same except all blended up….minus the coffee…

i was a little leery to give it to her…it was kinda thick. and not sure how it would taste. but she loved it and handled it like a champ! kicked in excitement for more!

love the blender. 

i always imagined being able to take my baby outside in the snow to play…i never imagined not knowing if my baby was ever going to sit, stand, crawl, or walk.

i always imagined being able to buy my baby tons of toys for christmas…i never imagined having to think about what she would be able to play with or getting approval from her therapists.

i always imagined seeing the joy on my baby’s face as she ripped open her christmas gifts…i never imagined having to open them for her and searching her face for any sort of recognition.

i always imagined baking and decorating christmas cookies with my baby…i never imagined her not even being able to eat a christmas cookie.

i always imagined seeing her toddle and twirl in her special christmas dress…i never imagined having to worry about wether or not we could get the dress on over her stiff limbs.

i always imagined having a sweet baby…i never imagined to have the best gift from God imaginable, our sweet Isla Ann.

Thank You Lord!

this is isla and her physical therapist and occupational therapist working on the scooter board pushing with her legs and knees to move forward. this will help her with figuring out crawling. enjoy!

*sorry for the cruddy cellphone pic. i need batteries for my camera.